The week in pictures...

♥44 Days♥

So, this is not going to be the typical wedding post like in the past. I just needed a little bit of time to vent.

I truly like my job. I'm very thankful to even have a job. I'm grateful that Genoa Bank decided to keep me even. But there are some things that really, really bother me at work. First off, I make quite a few phones calls throughout the day. And it seems every time I'm on the phone there are people talking loudly from afar, or having a community meeting right by my freaking desk. They all seem to gather right around my desk, not to talk to me at all, but to just to annoy the crap out of me. This then makes it harder than hell to listen to the person on the other end on my already craptastic phone. I completely understand that I work in an office setting, but people can gravitate from my desk at anytime so I can hear what the other person is saying. Especially when they aren't even there to talk to me!!!

Another thing that really irritates me is all the genres of music I listen to all day, ALL AT THE SAME TIME. I have no problem with any other kind of music. I just don't appreciate having to listen to different kinds all at the same time. I constantly hear rock, classical, pop, country and sports talk radio. I just want to be able to sit and listen to one genre of music at one time. Either that or I'm going to have to invest in my own radio and throw my kind of music into the mix too = )

Like I said before, I truly like my job. I generally get along with all the people too. I just wish somethings would change just a little to make my day a lot smoother and easier.

Till next time...

Are things going to start getting better...???

As of yesterday (August 10th, 2010) I became a long time employee at Genoa Bank. I'm no longer considered seasonal or temporary. They asked me if I wanted to stay and I of course said yes. I was so excited! It's still part-time, but hey, I'm there to stay. That was a huge weight off my chest! I eventually hope to move up to full-time so I can get better pay and the benefits. Now to focus on other things and not worry about whether I'm going to have a job at the end of the month!!!

As of today, we have 53 days left till the wedding. 53!!! I can't believe it. It's all just coming way to fast. We went flower shopping with Gum on Monday and I'm happy with what we picked out. I'm really excited to see how she does the bouquets and see how they come out. We also ordered things from the Oriental Trading magazine this past weekend finally. We ordered our flutes, cake cutter and server, balloons, a personalized sign, just a bunch of odds and ends. Now I just need to find a cake topper and a garter and for the most part we are set. We still need to focus on food though. That is just something I don't want to think about, but it's time to buckle down and figure it all out!
Today has been a full year since Daniel has been smoke free. I couldn't be more proud of him! It's amazing that he just finally buckled down and did it. And followed through with for a full year!! I love you babe♥

Daniel went and got a wisdom tooth pulled on Monday morning. He wasn't in as much pain as the last one, but he still had the typical pain that comes with a tooth pulling. Things like coughing, spitting and sneezing still hurts him though. Which brings me to this picture.
He had just got done sneezing in this picture and made this face. I personally thought it was hilarious!!! Oh how I love him♥

Till next time...

Is this really happening?!?!?

Ugh, I don't even know where to start this blog. I really should have just stayed in bed today. Things might have been better that way. I woke up today knowing that today wasn't going to be exactly easy.

Daniel's Uncle Jeff passed away Saturday morning. He had an aneurysm back in March and was doing so well. He wasn't quite remembering everyone all the time, but he had come so far. He had a history of trying to rip his trach (sp) out every time they messed with it and they had messed with it Friday morning. He ripped it out and was without oxygen for about an hour and a half. Needless to say, it was just a wait and see what happens from here situation. They did a brain wave scan and he only have one brain wave out of one hundred. That one brain wave was keeping his heart beating for the last few hours of life. We are told he went peacefully with no pain whatsoever, which I'm thankful for. He is a better place, no longer in pain and no longer going day after day not knowing who people are. They had his Memorial Service tonight (August 5th) and it was wonderful turnout. People just talked about all the good things Jeff did. It was hard knowing that he is actually gone though. It'll get better in time though, just like everything else. Rest in Peace Uncle Jeff. You are gone but never forgotten♥

Daniel & I have recently learned that the day of our wedding may be interfered with some kind of rifle competition out at the Sportsman Club. Needless to say, while we are saying out vows we may be listening to gunfire too. This is not the worst thing I've learned this week tho. Today, after I got home from work, I had a message from my photographer. He tells me that he can not do my wedding now. 58 days out and now I need to find a photographer. What in the hell am I supposed to do now? I've have sat here and cried and cried about all this. Can anything go right? I so wish we could just cancel everything and head to the courthouse. Things would be so much easier that way. I have no doubts this is just a test of mine and Daniel's relationship, but my God, hasn't life tested it enough? We have been tested so much in the short 5 1/2 years we've been together and nothing has broke us yet and nor will it ever! I just wish for once, something could go right for us. Something could go as planned. Will it ever happen?

I really need a night out or something....back to crying and trying to figure this all out....

Till next time...