Ugh, I don't even know where to start this blog. I really should have just stayed in bed today. Things might have been better that way. I woke up today knowing that today wasn't going to be exactly easy.
Daniel's Uncle Jeff passed away Saturday morning. He had an aneurysm back in March and was doing so well. He wasn't quite remembering everyone all the time, but he had come so far. He had a history of trying to rip his trach (sp) out every time they messed with it and they had messed with it Friday morning. He ripped it out and was without oxygen for about an hour and a half. Needless to say, it was just a wait and see what happens from here situation. They did a brain wave scan and he only have one brain wave out of one hundred. That one brain wave was keeping his heart beating for the last few hours of life. We are told he went peacefully with no pain whatsoever, which I'm thankful for. He is a better place, no longer in pain and no longer going day after day not knowing who people are. They had his Memorial Service tonight (August 5th) and it was wonderful turnout. People just talked about all the good things Jeff did. It was hard knowing that he is actually gone though. It'll get better in time though, just like everything else. Rest in Peace Uncle Jeff. You are gone but never forgotten♥
Daniel & I have recently learned that the day of our wedding may be interfered with some kind of rifle competition out at the Sportsman Club. Needless to say, while we are saying out vows we may be listening to gunfire too. This is not the worst thing I've learned this week tho. Today, after I got home from work, I had a message from my photographer. He tells me that he can not do my wedding now. 58 days out and now I need to find a photographer. What in the hell am I supposed to do now? I've have sat here and cried and cried about all this. Can anything go right? I so wish we could just cancel everything and head to the courthouse. Things would be so much easier that way. I have no doubts this is just a test of mine and Daniel's relationship, but my God, hasn't life tested it enough? We have been tested so much in the short 5 1/2 years we've been together and nothing has broke us yet and nor will it ever! I just wish for once, something could go right for us. Something could go as planned. Will it ever happen?
I really need a night out or something....back to crying and trying to figure this all out....
Till next time...
Daniel's Uncle Jeff passed away Saturday morning. He had an aneurysm back in March and was doing so well. He wasn't quite remembering everyone all the time, but he had come so far. He had a history of trying to rip his trach (sp) out every time they messed with it and they had messed with it Friday morning. He ripped it out and was without oxygen for about an hour and a half. Needless to say, it was just a wait and see what happens from here situation. They did a brain wave scan and he only have one brain wave out of one hundred. That one brain wave was keeping his heart beating for the last few hours of life. We are told he went peacefully with no pain whatsoever, which I'm thankful for. He is a better place, no longer in pain and no longer going day after day not knowing who people are. They had his Memorial Service tonight (August 5th) and it was wonderful turnout. People just talked about all the good things Jeff did. It was hard knowing that he is actually gone though. It'll get better in time though, just like everything else. Rest in Peace Uncle Jeff. You are gone but never forgotten♥
Daniel & I have recently learned that the day of our wedding may be interfered with some kind of rifle competition out at the Sportsman Club. Needless to say, while we are saying out vows we may be listening to gunfire too. This is not the worst thing I've learned this week tho. Today, after I got home from work, I had a message from my photographer. He tells me that he can not do my wedding now. 58 days out and now I need to find a photographer. What in the hell am I supposed to do now? I've have sat here and cried and cried about all this. Can anything go right? I so wish we could just cancel everything and head to the courthouse. Things would be so much easier that way. I have no doubts this is just a test of mine and Daniel's relationship, but my God, hasn't life tested it enough? We have been tested so much in the short 5 1/2 years we've been together and nothing has broke us yet and nor will it ever! I just wish for once, something could go right for us. Something could go as planned. Will it ever happen?
I really need a night out or something....back to crying and trying to figure this all out....
Till next time...
All the ups and downs will ultimately make you appreciate the day-of wedding sooo much more. And you are a strong person & you can handle anything life throws at you. As for the gun rifle competition...what the hell is that about?! You think they'd tell you about that BEFORE you book the hall! Its not exactly ideal for a wedding but regardless, we'll make it work! Love you!!!
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